I didn't want to just call it a major update so I gave it a title of animation that inspired me today in-fact.
So a lot of things have been happening to me recently! I been changing as a person and coming to realize things I wanted in the past are still relevant today which makes me highly ecstatic.
So let's start off with the small stuff I ordered a new monitor (www.newegg.com/Product/Product…
) LG gave me money for my old broken one that I bought 5 months prior and it had at least 50 dead pixels so that was amazing news to me!
So now let's move on to the more emotional side of this journal
I watched the animation of Remembrance
today! And this triggered all the right emotions in my mind. I have wanted to do animation ever since I was a little boy but was inspired enough. I always took what everyone ever said to heart and never really thought for my self. And I really thought about why I wanted to make art! I realized that I did it to convey emotion and things that people can relate to. Not just some silly piece of art work. This also ties it with me making music I can also use those for my animations.
Recently, I have also noticed the change of me being a really closed of person due to a lot of the pain I have experienced in the past that still haunts me til this day. So I been wanting to make new friends and I have been doing that slowly so it's starting to make me happy. I have always wanted friends that hang around with me and just are awesome to talk to instead of the people of my past that said they're my friends. Even my real life best friend stopped talking to me eventually cause I suppose I was no longer interesting enough to even talk to. I really want to make friends to hang around but that will happen in time I suppose I am rushing it a bit too much! I feel like if you are an introvert like me. It's very hard to make friends also having a lot of self-esteem issues saying you are always annoying or whatever or thinking too much of what others say for you then you think about it so much it becomes real. I was always told I was a loser, annoying so much so that's the reason no one talked to me, and just other things. I felt like I was being a burden on others and I just stopped talking to people. I figured it was for the best and it slowly pushed me to almost to the point of me not being alive anymore. And I feel like I just want to be that better person and always make them feel better even in my past I have done so. I want to make an impact on people not just the people around me. I want people to feel things not just keep it closed off inside.
TL;DR Gonna start making animations and I plan on talking to everyone even if I start to get more watchers. I want to make an impact on people.